ppl..why are they so everchanging?
i can hear ppl crying..
i can see their sorrow.
but wad hurts me is tht i cannot do much help..
i was hurt once..
and yes..wanting..
u told me frends were nt for life..
u told me tht frends were nt forever..
but on tht very night u told me tht
u saw tears forming.. i hate crying
i really hate to let my frends go
and i also know tht u and i hav life examples..
it really hurts me each time i know tht another friend is leaving me
AND YES..
pentel. i noe ur gd intentions of tellin me to ignore
but sometimes.. u guys are really giving me unwanted pressure
i am just tired and worn out.
i dun hav the extra energy to quarrel wif u guys,
all my energy were given to my dear sch homework and tests..
aren't u guys tired?
why wun u guys get sick and tired of bickering
why can't u guys get irritated by hating each other?
why can't i be the passing cloud..i feel so disgusted when ppl start to be very scarstic
YES.. AND I DUN LIKE PEOPLE WHO THINKS THEY ARE GOOD
u guys will nv grow up will u?
seriously.. i dun even hav the strength to scold bac at tht annoy..
but thanks guys for helping me do the job
=)
and wanting..
i believe tht wad goes round comes around..
i hav so many life examples
and i guess tht u are smart enough to think of some..
now.. i am neglecting my frends,
i am being sensetive..
i just felt so old by the min..
i juz wonder .. why am i so not capable of doin those tht are required of me..
or is it i am juz lazy
and vic.. stop the wad.. "HE JUMP I JUMP AND HE GO I GO AND THE HE DIE I DIE"
seriously speaking.. it is not funny.. and i dun like it..
and stupid tenor..
u better stop asking why i reject him and why i reject another too..
cause i juz dun wan another boy to become my burden..i am not saying
tenor..
i am saying the guy which keeps on asking u wad i like and all those
coward stuffs
got guts come to my face and say it
like the guy in 4e1
..
another coward
i treasure wad i hav..
i am selfish
i am now in a sickening mode
my mind never stop thinking abt tests and homework
and i dun even miss anyone now..
i dun hav the space in my mind to do so..
like wad daniel said
ALL THESE ARE RUBBISH!!!
[joEY]
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Friday, August 04, 2006
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
haiz...really dunno wad am i doing man.. i never felt so empty before...never..
really dunno wad took over me..my talks seems to have lessen...mood have been dipping down the graph ever since dunno the last last week..
i also cannot figure out wad made me become like this..i dun feel like talking..whole body seems so tired..seems to worn out..dumb ass group frends.. i really need them to really cheer me up , but with the weightage of my pressuring homework..nothing could help..when i dun understand my homework..i would reallly get mad..
that is why , i dun let people come my house ler..really cannot..always let u al coem , i will be ending up studying aroung 7pm ++ which cause me to fall asleep in class..i am not blaming you guys..dun misunderstand me..its just that i am too empty to think about things..
i really dun wan to make people happy ler... i juz wan people to make me happy..selfish right..i know...i dun have the mood to help people do blog now.. so junoir, u will have to wait..but i promise you that i will give u my kind of quailty work when i am done..caspia , you might have to wait too.. or you may ask others to help you..sabrina is not a bad idea..
wad am i yearning for actually? what do i deprive of? i will have to search...but i dun have the mental energy to do all these..i am juz reallly bo chap of things happening around me...hack care is now wad i am feeling now..too stressed out ler.. soo many things undone..(i do n ot mean homework).
+_At night , i thought of those memories which made my tears flow __+
~i can't tell it to anyone..cause no one knows how to make me feel better..cause even i , also dunno how to slove.. so how can u?~
i really wan to be better , in my acadamic life , i wish to soar up high..i want to do much better..can u all ( u shld noe who i am refering to) do it together with me? can? give me the moral support which i really need now..
if there were any saddening things happening to me now , i would really be so blank , that i will not know wad to do.. i will not rationalise..cause this is not me...and i am really empty..
~empty like the air~
~ zi lin ( not me)~
really dunno wad took over me..my talks seems to have lessen...mood have been dipping down the graph ever since dunno the last last week..
i also cannot figure out wad made me become like this..i dun feel like talking..whole body seems so tired..seems to worn out..dumb ass group frends.. i really need them to really cheer me up , but with the weightage of my pressuring homework..nothing could help..when i dun understand my homework..i would reallly get mad..
that is why , i dun let people come my house ler..really cannot..always let u al coem , i will be ending up studying aroung 7pm ++ which cause me to fall asleep in class..i am not blaming you guys..dun misunderstand me..its just that i am too empty to think about things..
i really dun wan to make people happy ler... i juz wan people to make me happy..selfish right..i know...i dun have the mood to help people do blog now.. so junoir, u will have to wait..but i promise you that i will give u my kind of quailty work when i am done..caspia , you might have to wait too.. or you may ask others to help you..sabrina is not a bad idea..
wad am i yearning for actually? what do i deprive of? i will have to search...but i dun have the mental energy to do all these..i am juz reallly bo chap of things happening around me...hack care is now wad i am feeling now..too stressed out ler.. soo many things undone..(i do n ot mean homework).
+_At night , i thought of those memories which made my tears flow __+
~i can't tell it to anyone..cause no one knows how to make me feel better..cause even i , also dunno how to slove.. so how can u?~
i really wan to be better , in my acadamic life , i wish to soar up high..i want to do much better..can u all ( u shld noe who i am refering to) do it together with me? can? give me the moral support which i really need now..
if there were any saddening things happening to me now , i would really be so blank , that i will not know wad to do.. i will not rationalise..cause this is not me...and i am really empty..
~empty like the air~
~ zi lin ( not me)~