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haiz...really dunno wad am i doing man.. i never felt so empty before...never..

really dunno wad took over me..my talks seems to have lessen...mood have been dipping down the graph ever since dunno the last last week..

i also cannot figure out wad made me become like this..i dun feel like talking..whole body seems so tired..seems to worn out..dumb ass group frends.. i really need them to really cheer me up , but with the weightage of my pressuring homework..nothing could help..when i dun understand my homework..i would reallly get mad..

that is why , i dun let people come my house ler..really cannot..always let u al coem , i will be ending up studying aroung 7pm ++ which cause me to fall asleep in class..i am not blaming you guys..dun misunderstand me..its just that i am too empty to think about things..

i really dun wan to make people happy ler... i juz wan people to make me happy..selfish right..i know...i dun have the mood to help people do blog now.. so junoir, u will have to wait..but i promise you that i will give u my kind of quailty work when i am done..caspia , you might have to wait too.. or you may ask others to help you..sabrina is not a bad idea..

wad am i yearning for actually? what do i deprive of? i will have to search...but i dun have the mental energy to do all these..i am juz reallly bo chap of things happening around me...hack care is now wad i am feeling now..too stressed out ler.. soo many things undone..(i do n ot mean homework).

+_At night , i thought of those memories which made my tears flow __+

~i can't tell it to anyone..cause no one knows how to make me feel better..cause even i , also dunno how to slove.. so how can u?~

i really wan to be better , in my acadamic life , i wish to soar up high..i want to do much better..can u all ( u shld noe who i am refering to) do it together with me? can? give me the moral support which i really need now..

if there were any saddening things happening to me now , i would really be so blank , that i will not know wad to do.. i will not rationalise..cause this is not me...and i am really empty..

~empty like the air~
~ zi lin ( not me)~

posted by jnzl @ 1:56 AM