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2006-08-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

ppl..why are they so everchanging?

i can hear ppl crying..

i can see their sorrow.

but wad hurts me is tht i cannot do much help..

i was hurt once..

and yes..wanting..

u told me frends were nt for life..

u told me tht frends were nt forever..

but on tht very night u told me tht

u saw tears forming.. i hate crying

i really hate to let my frends go

and i also know tht u and i hav life examples..

it really hurts me each time i know tht another friend is leaving me

AND YES..

pentel. i noe ur gd intentions of tellin me to ignore

but sometimes.. u guys are really giving me unwanted pressure

i am just tired and worn out.

i dun hav the extra energy to quarrel wif u guys,

all my energy were given to my dear sch homework and tests..

aren't u guys tired?

why wun u guys get sick and tired of bickering

why can't u guys get irritated by hating each other?

why can't i be the passing cloud..i feel so disgusted when ppl start to be very scarstic

YES.. AND I DUN LIKE PEOPLE WHO THINKS THEY ARE GOOD

u guys will nv grow up will u?

seriously.. i dun even hav the strength to scold bac at tht annoy..

but thanks guys for helping me do the job

=)

and wanting..

i believe tht wad goes round comes around..

i hav so many life examples

and i guess tht u are smart enough to think of some..

now.. i am neglecting my frends,

i am being sensetive..

i just felt so old by the min..

i juz wonder .. why am i so not capable of doin those tht are required of me..

or is it i am juz lazy

and vic.. stop the wad.. "HE JUMP I JUMP AND HE GO I GO AND THE HE DIE I DIE"

seriously speaking.. it is not funny.. and i dun like it..

and stupid tenor..

u better stop asking why i reject him and why i reject another too..

cause i juz dun wan another boy to become my burden..i am not saying
tenor..

i am saying the guy which keeps on asking u wad i like and all those
coward stuffs

got guts come to my face and say it

like the guy in 4e1

..

another coward

i treasure wad i hav..

i am selfish

i am now in a sickening mode

my mind never stop thinking abt tests and homework

and i dun even miss anyone now..

i dun hav the space in my mind to do so..

like wad daniel said

ALL THESE ARE RUBBISH!!!

[joEY]

2006-06-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

I AM SUFFERING FRM

ALL OR NOTHING

PSYCOLOGICAL SYMPTOM...

JUZ GREAT!

2006-04-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

haiz...really dunno wad am i doing man.. i never felt so empty before...never..

really dunno wad took over me..my talks seems to have lessen...mood have been dipping down the graph ever since dunno the last last week..

i also cannot figure out wad made me become like this..i dun feel like talking..whole body seems so tired..seems to worn out..dumb ass group frends.. i really need them to really cheer me up , but with the weightage of my pressuring homework..nothing could help..when i dun understand my homework..i would reallly get mad..

that is why , i dun let people come my house ler..really cannot..always let u al coem , i will be ending up studying aroung 7pm ++ which cause me to fall asleep in class..i am not blaming you guys..dun misunderstand me..its just that i am too empty to think about things..

i really dun wan to make people happy ler... i juz wan people to make me happy..selfish right..i know...i dun have the mood to help people do blog now.. so junoir, u will have to wait..but i promise you that i will give u my kind of quailty work when i am done..caspia , you might have to wait too.. or you may ask others to help you..sabrina is not a bad idea..

wad am i yearning for actually? what do i deprive of? i will have to search...but i dun have the mental energy to do all these..i am juz reallly bo chap of things happening around me...hack care is now wad i am feeling now..too stressed out ler.. soo many things undone..(i do n ot mean homework).

+_At night , i thought of those memories which made my tears flow __+

~i can't tell it to anyone..cause no one knows how to make me feel better..cause even i , also dunno how to slove.. so how can u?~

i really wan to be better , in my acadamic life , i wish to soar up high..i want to do much better..can u all ( u shld noe who i am refering to) do it together with me? can? give me the moral support which i really need now..

if there were any saddening things happening to me now , i would really be so blank , that i will not know wad to do.. i will not rationalise..cause this is not me...and i am really empty..

~empty like the air~
~ zi lin ( not me)~